NaNoWriMo 2017 | Why I Always Attempt NaNo Even Though I Never Do It

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Today is the last day of NaNoWriMo 2017, and fittingly, it is also the first day this site is live. 

This year's NaNo is one of the main reasons I decided to finally create this site. 

As many of you already know, I participated in this year's NaNo, but with a twist. I wasn't trying to write a novel, as most who participate do, instead I was simply trying to write every single day. 

The problem with this plan of mine was that I went about it all wrong. Or all wrong for me - your creative process could be very different from mine. I wasn't prepared to work on a single project. I had too many ideas jumping around in my brain to sit down every day and write just one, but I also had too many ideas to write them all down. So, every day I would sit down and write, because I wanted to write, but at the end of the day I felt like I didn't accomplish anything because I tried to force myself to write a single story. Then, I gave up on writing a single story and wrote all my ideas down. As you can imagine, that didn't work as well as I wanted either. I needed an outlet for my writing, and I needed to organize my thoughts, but I felt like I didn't have time. I felt like I was drowning in my own thoughts. I felt like I was failing. 

This of course isn't true, but that isn't the point.

I felt like I wasn't doing anything right - so I became discouraged, then I decided to find an outlet where I could write every day without the writing needing to be one of my fictional creations. And alas, here we are.

This site will without a doubt hold bookish writings, from reviews to expansions on videos I film, but it will also become a home to my thoughts when they need to escape my head. 

Hopefully in this process I can become a better writer, while also giving fuel to my creativity. *fingers crossed*

As for now, this is the end of NaNoWriMo 2017 for me. No, I didn't write a novel. No, I didn't finish a story. But, I did find a new place my writing can call home. 

I count that as a win. 

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